{"id":598,"date":"2008-08-07T14:25:43","date_gmt":"2008-08-07T18:25:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/?p=598"},"modified":"2008-08-07T14:25:43","modified_gmt":"2008-08-07T18:25:43","slug":"im-no-longer-afraid-of-death-im-still-afraid-of-dying-though","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/im-no-longer-afraid-of-death-im-still-afraid-of-dying-though\/","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m no longer afraid of death. I&#8217;m still afraid of dying, though."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>You know when you hear a news story about a young person who has died and the reporter writing it has to go on and on about all the potential that person had? Oh, she was going to be a scientist, a movie star, a businesswoman. She was popular and well-liked. All that jazz. When I was a teenager, I never wanted to be one of those people. I didn&#8217;t ever want a newspaper (even if it was just the local town newspaper) saying my life ended too soon. <\/p>\n<p> I&#8217;m in the beginning of my fourth decade of life, and I feel okay about things. I&#8217;m no Superman. I&#8217;m not Mother Teresa, Malcolm X, Susan Brownmiller, Greg Mortenson, or John Lennon. I&#8217;m sure there are cool things I could have done up to this point in my life that I haven&#8217;t yet done. Nevertheless, I have no lingering regrets, and I feel I&#8217;ve lived a pretty full life. <\/p>\n<p> I&#8217;m not saying I want to die. I look forward to whatever God has planned for me in the future. I wouldn&#8217;t want to leave my wife widowed or our cat fatherless. I&#8217;m sure there would be people saddened by my death, so I don&#8217;t really relish the idea of dying any time soon. Nevertheless, I don&#8217;t fear it any more. If I die, I die. There are worse things that could happen to the human race than losing me. Death isn&#8217;t scary to me now. <\/p>\n<p> The actual process of dying I do fear, though. Recently, there was a news story about some dude in Canada who decapitated and partially ate another passenger on a bus ride. The other passenger had been sleeping when he was stabbed and beheaded. I&#8217;m sure he woke up when he was stabbed. What a way to wake up! I don&#8217;t really know how I want to go. A violent death isn&#8217;t particularly appealing to me. Nor do I want to slowly wither away fighting cancer or Alzheimer&#8217;s.  Would I want to know I was dying as I died? Or would I want to just go to sleep and not wake up? This post is getting morbid. Let&#8217;s not dwell on the dying bit to much, shall we? <\/p>\n<p> Well, thank the Lord I&#8217;ve lived this long at least. I&#8217;m glad for what I&#8217;ve been able to experience and accomplish so far. And all the friends I&#8217;ve made along the way (both in-person and online) I consider blessings.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>You know when you hear a news story about a young person who has died and the reporter writing it has to go on and on about all the potential that person had? Oh, she was going to be a scientist, a movie star, a businesswoman. She was popular and well-liked. All that jazz. When&hellip; <a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/im-no-longer-afraid-of-death-im-still-afraid-of-dying-though\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">I&#8217;m no longer afraid of death. I&#8217;m still afraid of dying, though.<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[382,383,384,385,386],"class_list":["post-598","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life","tag-death","tag-dying","tag-personal","tag-random-thoughts","tag-thanksgiving","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/598","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=598"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/598\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":603,"href":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/598\/revisions\/603"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=598"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=598"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.psychocats.net\/ubuntucat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=598"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}